On 07FEB12 my fatal shooting will have occurred 12 years ago. Since I pulled the trigger I have felt like Mulder from the X Files, the truth is out there. What I learned that cold, dark night about myself and others created an unquenchable thirst to reconcile how we train and the reality of how humans actually react. I am not just talking about shooting but in response to all interpersonal combat.
At the time I had been two my first firearms instructors course as well as on the SWAT team for two years. I felt that I was not only more trained than the average officer but my mindset was better. The way that I explain it was that I felt like I had been trained to throw a football through a tire to prepare me to play in the NFL.
It forced me to take a hard look at all training from that point forward in a whole new way. The best way that I could put it is that the majority of traditional training was like trying to run a windows XP program on a windows 98 machine. Training is too often put forward without understanding the human mind and body.
As far as taking another human life...if it does not bother you than IMHO you are a sociopath. If you want to hurt another human you are a sociopath. Those people I know personally that have pulled the trigger fit into one of two groups. Those that know it affects them and work towards dealing with it, and those who think they are fine and end up having it ruin their lives but attribute it to everything but the root cause.
That is why all the tough guy "rather to be judged by 12 than carried by six" gun show t-shirt mantra does nothing but disgust me. The same is true for people posting how they will respond when something happens. The truth is you don't know.- George
At the time I had been two my first firearms instructors course as well as on the SWAT team for two years. I felt that I was not only more trained than the average officer but my mindset was better. The way that I explain it was that I felt like I had been trained to throw a football through a tire to prepare me to play in the NFL.
It forced me to take a hard look at all training from that point forward in a whole new way. The best way that I could put it is that the majority of traditional training was like trying to run a windows XP program on a windows 98 machine. Training is too often put forward without understanding the human mind and body.
As far as taking another human life...if it does not bother you than IMHO you are a sociopath. If you want to hurt another human you are a sociopath. Those people I know personally that have pulled the trigger fit into one of two groups. Those that know it affects them and work towards dealing with it, and those who think they are fine and end up having it ruin their lives but attribute it to everything but the root cause.
That is why all the tough guy "rather to be judged by 12 than carried by six" gun show t-shirt mantra does nothing but disgust me. The same is true for people posting how they will respond when something happens. The truth is you don't know.- George