Welcome to the dance that is marriage. While sometimes you feel like you are going backwards and in the next moment racing ahead, turning from awkward stumbling into giddy prancing, the whole while you are with the one person who will help you become more than you ever could have been alone just as she too will become more than she would have been without you.
Sometimes the music will dim and the dance will seem all but over, but soon enough the band will be at full and away you will be. Never forget it is a contract, a bond, an investment. And never, never envy that guy sitting in the chair on the sideline laughing at your backward stumble - he just wishes he was on the dance floor as well.
God bless, good luck, and in those difficult moments ask for help.