I am going to start off by saying sorry for the rambleing and the negativity, but for me its a lot easier to type on a computer at this point than to talk to friends face to face and try to keep any type of composer.
LIFE SUCKS
I sit here in a hospital room for the 32nd day watching my wife fight for her life against a monster called cancer. Its kind of hard now to picture us just 33 days ago at home enjoying the day and all the while my loving wife, behind my back planning a surprise b-day party for me. Then 1 day later, the actual day the party was to take place, winding up in the hospital for a bellyache which would be the begining of what would be the worst nightmare imaginable.
So there lies my wife, all her hair gone, recieving 3 different medications being injected through 4 different IV lines, on oxygen, struggleing for every breath she takes and still has the mental fortitude to look at me, smile and wink and say "I love you". This woman is my rock! I can honestly say, she has made me the person i am today. She has taught me how to live, she has taught me the true meaning of love.
We have some pretty incredible friends that have been here from day one and have given my wife and I incredible strength to fight this monster. I stay strong around her and tell her to be strong too. I may sneek off to a quiet room or go for a short drive and "have a moment", but i always try to stay strong for her.
Again sorry for all the mushy bableing, but i just needed to "unload" a little where composer doesnt matter.
I dont know what tomorrow will bring, but i do know that everything is in gods hands and my wife WILL win this war.
P.S. I love you Tammy
LIFE SUCKS
I sit here in a hospital room for the 32nd day watching my wife fight for her life against a monster called cancer. Its kind of hard now to picture us just 33 days ago at home enjoying the day and all the while my loving wife, behind my back planning a surprise b-day party for me. Then 1 day later, the actual day the party was to take place, winding up in the hospital for a bellyache which would be the begining of what would be the worst nightmare imaginable.
So there lies my wife, all her hair gone, recieving 3 different medications being injected through 4 different IV lines, on oxygen, struggleing for every breath she takes and still has the mental fortitude to look at me, smile and wink and say "I love you". This woman is my rock! I can honestly say, she has made me the person i am today. She has taught me how to live, she has taught me the true meaning of love.
We have some pretty incredible friends that have been here from day one and have given my wife and I incredible strength to fight this monster. I stay strong around her and tell her to be strong too. I may sneek off to a quiet room or go for a short drive and "have a moment", but i always try to stay strong for her.
Again sorry for all the mushy bableing, but i just needed to "unload" a little where composer doesnt matter.
I dont know what tomorrow will bring, but i do know that everything is in gods hands and my wife WILL win this war.
P.S. I love you Tammy